it's not enough

we’re constantly looking for that ‘something more’ in things; in our relationships, in our jobs, in possessions, in our state of physical shape, in our philosophies about life.

we're right in one thing: there’s something we’re overlooking, something we’re not quite getting right. everybody has this sense in life, but where we make the mistake is in looking for that something more that keeps on eluding us in things.

our relationships change, we get tired of our jobs, a car in the end is just a car, our philosophies – no matter how elevated and intelligent – don’t end up solving anything in our day to day experience.

none of these things will ever be enough. only in enoughness itself will we find the fulfillment we seek, and it is already present as the simplest aspect or our nature. if you’re looking for it, you’ve already missed the point.

feigning ignorance

we don't have to do anything to be ourselves. we already are what we are and there's absolutely nothing that can change or add to that.

what we perceive ourselves to be, on the other hand, is subject to change and will take different forms throughout our lives depending on many factors.

but what we really are is immutable. It's present in every changing circumstance of our lives: when we're at peace, in turmoil, nervous, confident, watering a plant, having sex.

in each and every situation of our lives, the presence of what we are is neither increased nor diminished; it always exists in complete totality. it can be overlooked or acknowledged, but even this overlooking is a feigned ignorance; it can only be accomplished by directing a large percentage of our awareness away from ourselves.

the effect is similar to when we become oblivious to pain by concentrating strongly on something else; as soon as we stop paying attention to that something else, the awareness of pain comes rushing back in.