transmitting

when you sense the ever-present and unchanging truth of what you are beneath the superficial roles you've created and cramped yourself into throughout your life (or at least tried to), there's no problem with playing one role or another because you no longer confuse them for the truth.

as your sense of identity becomes increasingly rooted in the indefinable, experiential truth of what you are, roles simply become roles and there's no fear of becoming something you don't want to become or failing to become something you want to become.

you are what you are, and can be nothing else. this isn’t a limitation; it’s a blessing.

when all your energy isn't bound up by the effort of transmitting the person you think you are or want to be to yourself and others, and as you deepen into the truth of what you are, the natural result is that you begin transmitting love.

cheating ourselves

what usually ensues the brief, indignant struggle against being cramped into someone else's frustratingly limited conception of who we are is a resigned submittance to the behavior we're expected to reproduce.

as we grudgingly play out the roles we've entrapped ourselves in, gaudily painted faces smiling forcefully on a stifling stage, we internally hate ourselves for cheating our inner voice again and again.

the roles we've played

throughout our lives, we've tried to fit ourselves into the structure of a high-schooler, a sports player, an artist, an intellectual, a scientist, a mother, a father. some of us did better than others but deep down we all knew we were faking it, that we were only pretending to be these things. perhaps we felt we were the only ones pretending.

this sense of pretending is proof that we've always been aware of what we really are. the inability to completely be any of these fluctuating roles is based on the fact that we already completely are something else, and we've always known that.