just be

let's cut the crap, shall we? there's something right there on the edge of your awareness. something you can't quite pin down. you can feel it tickling the back of your brain, tugging at the corners of your memory. you've been very close to realizing what it is time and again, and every time you approach it, every time your entire life converges on a single point and your whole consciousness expresses itself as one unutterable question, you feel you're just millimeters from some monumental, yet incredibly familiar realization - something you know will make you scream out in recognition, as if you've finally solved life's riddle: "THAT'S it!"

that's right! and it's always been there. nothing you have ever done has made it any more or less real. it will always be there, seen or unseen. and it will always be known, acknowledged or not. it is inescapable. it will be there as you brush your teeth. it'll be there while you take a shit. it won't go away when you scream in traffic, and it won't be any "closer" when you're sitting in silent meditation.

it's not a question of what actions you choose to engage in or renounce. it's a question of what decision you choose to make: will you lose yourself in specifics and increase the force of forgetfulness, or will you accept that this trip ain't gonna last forever and behave accordingly? will you inhabit what you are even if it doesn't look like what you've been taught to be, or will you keep ignoring what is so tremendously obvious (what may be too simple and self-evident, in fact, to be regarded as important)? life goes on either way.